The past few weeks have been very difficult for me. We had revival at church. Nothing happened. We started looking at ways to reach the community. No ideas were given. Tonight I am up late becuase I am thinking of everything and anything. Not sleeping. I am at a point where I wonder what I am doing in the place I am at and why is nothing happening. I pray. Some. I study. Too much. It seems familiar but the Voice I once heard clearly is now very faint. I think "what if" not "why not". I am frustrated that what once seemed so clear is now so foggy. When I talk with the Lord , my question is "Are You sure?" not "I am here, send me." What I hear is yes but what I see is chaos at best.
A friend of mine had a tough day last week. His mom was in an accident and when I first heard about what happened, I was scared. For her, for him, for the family. And even for me. The question was "are You sure?" She was fine but everything could have changed in an instant. It may already have. I am here doing what I was called to do but things are not going the way they are supposed to. Lord, are you sure I need to be in West Texas? Lord, are sure I am supposed to lead others to you? Lord, are you sure you want to give me this much responsibility? Lord, are you sure you are still there? This may be a challenge or it may be time for change. What was certain today is still up for grabs tomorrow but something keeps reminding me in a still, very small voice....
Yes, I'm sure.
I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.